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Falling

I was falling. Falling through time and space and stars and sky and everything in between. I fell for days and weeks and what felt like lifetime across lifetimes. I fell until I forgot I was falling. Jess Rothenberg

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Depression, Anxiety, Anger, Fear… Pain

Your worst enemy cannot hurt you as much as your own thoughts, when you haven’t mastered them. – Gautama Buddha

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Ghost

November. It is nowhere near me now. November is circling back around though. It moves along confidently, in an evil orbit, content to slowly circumnavigate it’s way back to me. Floating overhead like a bloodlusting scavenger bird. Feathers that are … Continue reading

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Crossing

There is no more need for you, now. Should I keep my killer? Murderer of the misled, your gentle prints are everywhere. But no one is looking for you. Your sanguine stroke, plunging the knife forward in full view of … Continue reading

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No Closure

The most painful question for this wounded lover is “Why?” The hard, most jagged, bitter answer I received was “It doesn’t matter now, anyway.” She pitched that answer to me in a parking lot, when she already had been making … Continue reading

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Gratitude

“I hope one day, we find each other again and laugh over whatever pain we might have caused…” – R.M. Drake I am trying to make you a part of my past, to break away from you, but our experiences … Continue reading

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Forgiving

I forgive you for the lies you told me the entire year we were together. I forgive you for cheating on me. I forgive you for the STD you gave me and then lied about, as I choked on the … Continue reading

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Being Single

Being single feels like failure. I’m still in pain from my breakup and every instinct in me tells me to frantically find someone to distract me, to help me avoid the pain, to help me create the illusion of being … Continue reading

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Beautiful Faces

Take a quick scroll through Instagram, and realize that a beautiful face is very ordinary. Inner beauty is extraordinary. Inner beauty transforms the way others see you. People with inner beauty flourish before the eyes of others and these people … Continue reading

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Loss, and Spiritual Death

I reached the bottom, the absolute bottom, and felt like I could not go any further down, and that the only answer was to leave this world and the pain behind, and so I died. I put a gun in … Continue reading

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